At 32 weeks I've thought and not thought about giving birth.
Not thought about because it can be overwhelming. The emotions from my last birth can still be overwhelming at times so not thinking is sometimes easier than dealing.
Thought about because I want to have a plan in place. I want to know the contingencies for all the what ifs. There are already a lot of what ifs in a normal birth, but birth after your uterus jumps ship can add in even more what ifs.
I know that not every what if has an answer. Many of the what ifs are likely to not happen. Just because the same what if happens this time, it doesn't mean that it will have the same result. I can dwell and over think and stress myself out, or I can focus on the good things and the things I can control.