The Toddler Room.
Those three words have caused me more anxiety in the past two weeks than First Birthday ever could.
First Birthday? It's 19 days away. I've got that. Cake smash session? On the books. Outfit? Done. Invitations? Ordered. It'll be a simple affair because I just don't feel up to planning a party for older kids. We'll do that down the road when he remembers. We'll have beverages and watch him demolish a cake. Sounds like a perfect first birthday.
Thinking about him moving to The Toddler Room? It's caused the tears to flow. Sleepless nights have occurred. I had a breakdown similar to when I walked into work and told my boss I was starting maternity leave early. Phone calls have been made to amazing coworkers who have tolerated my first time mom questions and assured me that my daycare is not doing anything different and aren't evil people that make babies grow up too fast. (Though I'm still unsure on that last part.) I've already let my boss know to expect lots of tears and that I may need to take the day off.
Then on Friday they went and bumped the move to The Toddler Room up on me. I was supposed to have 3 weeks! Now it's just 2. In 12 days my baby will be thrown until the world of shoes, sippy cups, sitting at tables to eat, 1 scheduled nap per day, and on a nap mat to boot. Bottles? They're a thing of the past! He's going cold turkey and I don't know how it's going to work.
I suddenly have a school shopping list! Nap mat. Blanket. Where does one find a toddler sized blanket? Sippy cups. Shoes!? He's not even walking! Why does he need shoes to wear outside if he can't walk, and therefore can't play on the playground, and will only eat rocks if you even try to take him outside?
On the plus side all his friends are moving with him. They'll all be going through this transition together. (Which honestly seems horrible for the teachers.) While he's not walking (neither is one other), he is eating more solids than than the others and feeds himself (Yay baby led weaning!). They'll all be going off the bottle together, learning to sleep on mats together, and to eat at the table. (But wouldn't this make it harder for them to learn these things?)
I'm just so nervous for him! Turning 1 doesn't mean some switch is turned and they start doing all these things all the sudden. Right? If so, I certainly didn't get the memo and I'm not sure all these babies did either.
I also worry about what scheduled feedings will do to breastfeeding. I'm not changing him to cow milk and plan to continue pumping and sending milk to daycare. He only gets milk with meals and snack though. I don't want to mess with his awesome sleep schedule, but that means we miss breakfast at school. He recently dropped his 8:30am feeding so I don't know how that's going to work. Waffle in one hand, sippy of milk in the other on the way to school? That just adds one more bit of craziness to our already hurried morning. I see long nights of reverse cycling ahead of me. Shouldn't we be getting more sleep by now?
Please tell me it'll be ok. Please tell me your baby went through this and turned out just fine and is now a high functioning adult that never had issues from going cold turkey off the bottle. Or that therapy is at least helping to resolve those issues. Tell me this isn't going to totally screw up breastfeeding for us. Convince me that his caretakers aren't trying to make him grow up too fast. Just a little faster than this mom prefers. And if you see me, give me a hug and don't judge if I start crying on your shoulder.